You see, a narcissist knows exactly when God is warning them. They may pretend they don’t believe in accountability. They may mock faith. They may act like nothing touches them. But the moment their body weakens, their confidence collapses. Their sickness exposes something that their ego spends a lifetime hiding: their deep fear.
When they fall sick, they feel spiritually naked. They know their lies, cruelty, manipulation, and betrayal have all been witnessed by a power they cannot outsmart. For a brief moment, the mask shatters. For a brief moment, they try to negotiate with God the same way they negotiate with you. They think if they act nice, if they behave well, if they give a little more money, if they promise a better future, maybe the universe will stop punishing them.
This is not repentance. This is not change. This is fear dressed as goodness. Another sign is that narcissists become hyper-religious. Here’s why: they are not hyper-religious to honor God or because they love God. They pray because they know, deep down, they have accumulated a lifetime of sins, betrayals, and cruelty. So they try to balance it by praying obsessively, hoping God will automatically wipe their slate clean.
But you have to understand something essential about a narcissist’s mind. Their relationship with God is purely transactional, not spiritual. As I was explaining earlier, we pray out of faith, humility, surrender, and connection. We pray because our hearts feel something. We pray because our consciences are alive and our souls recognize the presence of something greater. A narcissist does not pray for connection; they pray for calculation. They think if they perform religion loudly, publicly, and dramatically, then God will somehow reward them with wealth, health, luck, and protection.
In their mind, God is just another authority figure—a projection of their ego. Just like we may give a child a piece of chocolate to calm them down and buy their happiness, narcissists worship God to buy blessings and skip their actual bad deeds. That thinking is painfully childish and dangerously arrogant.
They think, “I will destroy you without limits, and then I’ll pray and act religious enough. God will automatically feel obliged to overlook everything.” What they do not understand is that God responds to sincerity, not spectacle. Narcissists are incapable of sincerity. Their religiousness is not born from a fear of God; it’s born from a fear of consequences. When life hits them, when karma shows up, when their bodies weaken, and when their lies catch up to them—only then do they suddenly become devout, which they actually are not.
They cling to religion the way a drowning person clings to driftwood. Why? Because they need it; their lives depend on it. They don’t worship God; they worship their own ego and the benefits they think God will give them. This is the biggest piece of the puzzle that most people struggle to understand. They see the narcissist quoting verses, using scripture, and wearing religious clothing. They’re compelled to think, “Yeah, maybe they’re better than me. Maybe they’re closer to God.” That’s not the case.
A narcissist’s hyper-religiousness is the loudest proof that their souls know exactly how dark their deeds are. Their prayers are not prayers; they are panic. They are bargaining attempts to erase what they refuse to repent for. Their faith is not genuine; it is fear wearing the costume of devotion.
The Fear of Death: A Narcissist’s Ultimate Terror
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