The third and most significant stage is spiritual awakening. You might think this stage is all about roses and beauty, but I regret to say that spiritual awakening can be the most painful experience due to both internal and external isolation.
As changes occur within you, you may not want to communicate or engage in shallow conversations anymore. You don’t want to connect with others on a superficial level. As I mentioned, you may upset many people, leading to further isolation. You find yourself disinterested in gossip circles and basic discussions that don’t inspire deeper questions about existence, purpose, and collective transformation.
You begin to enjoy your own company, but the internal chaos can be triggered by feelings of isolation. You may feel closer to God at times, yet there are moments when you feel disconnected. You might question the existence of God altogether: Why are you going through this? There’s a concept called the “dark night of the soul,” which describes this abyss—a free fall without an end to the pain. You are left with terrifying questions: What does it all mean? Was any of this real?
During this stage, your ego becomes visible. You recognize what you are not, and this is when you channel true energy. Peace begins to settle within you, just as sand settles at the bottom of a vessel in water. After this internal change comes self-realization; you know who you are, why you are here, and what you need to do next. This realization is inspired by the divine, and you receive guidance in the form of visions, dreams, synchronistic events, and messages from others and from your guides. Help is always available.
Simultaneously, you may leave the narcissist behind. Solutions will appear, just as they did for me when it was time to leave my toxic family. Doors opened miraculously, and I knew I had to go. I was pushed out of that reality, and I hated God in that moment, asking, “Why are you putting me through this? What have I done?” At the time, I did not fully grasp the toxicity I was part of. But now, I understand that I needed to be pain-free. If my suffering was to end, leaving was the only way.
This marks the conclusion of the spiritual awakening—or should I say, expansion. You keep growing from this point onward. Triggers become naturally neutralized, and you find peace, joy, awe, interest, and wonder—not just fleeting happiness.
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